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Be gifted of God, even to the highest degree, even with the most excellent of gifts, yet a man will fail, must fail.

Noah, obedient in the most outrageous of commands, indulged in too much wine – and failed. Abraham, a man of extraordinary faith saw the beauty of his wife and the lust of men. He feared – and failed. David, endowed with a heart capable of great love for God, looked elsewhere – and failed. Solomon, in all his wisdom, knowledge, and wealth saw the logical end of all things and despaired – and failed. Elijah, who could call down fire from heaven, who could race across a desert faster than horses and chariots, who could cut off rain from the skies, heard a woman’s threat and feared – and failed.

The list goes on. Name after name of men and women upon whom the Spirit of God rested, who moved in power, yet who fell short or overstepped the bounds.

Jesus came. But men still failed. John the Baptist who saw heaven open and heard the voice of God, in prison, doubted – and failed.

Jesus died. The disciples his. They feared. They failed.

Jesus rose. Still the disciples hid and feared and failed.

Jesus ascended. The Holy Spirit came in power and indwelt the spirits of all the men and women who called upon the name of Christ. Ananias and Sapphira, tempted by greed and an easy path to a good name, lied and died. Peter, who endured scorn and beatings, whose very shadow could bring healing yet at the disapproval of a few withdrew fellowship from his Gentile brothers in the Lord – and failed. John Mark, who stood with Jesus in the Garden of Gethsemane, became discouraged by the rigors of the journey, turned back – and failed.

If the records were opened to human eyes, not one of the great men or women of God, from Peter to this very day, was perfect. The all have, they all will fail.

Why? Why all this failute? Why is there not even one who has stayed true? The Guinness Bok of Records is a compilation of human success. The Bible is a compilation of human failure. Again, why?

So that God may be glorified and no man may boast.

When Satan rebelled, was it not within God’s power to utterly annihilate him and his followers with one word? It was. So why didn’t He? Why not destroy Lucifer before He created Adam and Eve? With no evil one to tempt them would they not have engendered a race of perfect servants and worshipers? Or would one of that race eventually have walked in the footsteps of Lucifer and would such a fall have been an even greater catastrophe?

God will prevail. Satan will be defeated. But the evil one will not merely be destroyed; he will be humiliated. For, it seems, God has chosen to use creatures that in comparison to the devil are pitifully frail and in comparison to God’s righteousness, hopelessly broken, to defeat His enemy.

By this strategy, God’s righteousness, power, majesty, justice, lovingkindness, grace, and mercy will be glorified beyond all measure. The Creator will use the foolish and powerless to vanquish the clever and powerful, to the eternal praise of His name.

So, born-again, Spirit-filled, baptized and anointed child of God, take heart! You are going to fail! How? Take pride in the gifts the Father has given you. Make a name for yourself before the world. Stride confidently in the direction you have chosen for yourself. Your failure, like the collapse of a mighty tower will shake the earth. The anguish and humiliation will be almost greater than you can bear. Reconciliation is still possible, but restoration will be long and slow.

Stay close to God. Seek wisdom. Remain humble before Him. You will still fail. And each failure will pierce and burn like a fiery arrow, even if none but those closest to you ever see the lapse. The closer you are to God the more even the smallest fault will hurt. But He is a God who is quick to heal. Confess, repent, and He will make the broken places stronger. In your weakness, will Christ’s victory over Saten be even more glorious.

Shall we seek out failure, then to advance the glory of God? As Paul says, “may it never be!” Only in the failures that are certain to come, rejoice and take comfort, not despair. Do not lose hope. Do not turn from the discipline of the Father of communion with Christ or the fellowship of His saints. Christ will overcome and your victory will be in Him.

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93 Million Miles

Ninety-three million miles. So distant is the sun from the earth, from me. On a brilliant winter day, the sun streams in bright benediction inviting you to forget the chill outside and enjoy its presence. This day, this moment, nothing presses, at least not with unrelenting urgency, and so you do. Basking in the light, its radiant heat soaks through your skin to your very bones in a relaxing and gentle massage.

Time seems to stop as you daydream or even doze, content and at peace. Suddenly a chill startles you. Even though the room was comfortably warm just moments ago, now an unpleasant coolness creeps over you. The window is no longer filled with the sun’s light and the shadow of its absence is shockingly cold. The sun has moved on and no longer shines fully on you even though the light of day still illumines the room.

But wait! The sun does not move! At least not around the earth. It is the world itself that is hurtling through space, carrying you with it, carrying you away from the beneficent light.

A day comes, a moment comes when you shut the door on the unrelenting, urgent demands on your time. Perhaps it is a Sunday morning at church. Perhaps it’s a weekday as one load is in the washer and the other in the dryer still tumbling damply. Or it’s noon and you’re eating your lunch in the parking lot. You hear in the sudden pause the invitation to sit while in the presence of the Father. And you do.

The time of prayer is sweet and you are rewarded by the knowledge of His presence. For once, you lose yourself in worship and enter the timeless place before the throne of grace. How long? A moment; half an eternity; who knows? But suddenly a shadow strikes a chill that reaches deep into your heart. He is gone!  No. He is not gone. His mercy, grace and lovingkindness still illumine your life. But time and the world have carried you out of that timeless moment of communion and earth reasserts its clammy presence.

The world will do that – sit idle upon the face of the world and it will carry you, first out of the radiance of His presence and eventually even out of the general illumination of His daily grace into darkness. So to abide in God’s presence we must be moving, moving against the rotation of the world – like walking upwards on a down escalator. Pause in our walk and the world sweeps us away.

It is an impossible task, this abiding in the presence of God. Impossible, that is, in our own strength. For we grow weary and sink to the earth in search of rest. But we are not alone. The Holy Spirit lives within the child of God. He gives us power and endurance to follow our Shepherd and King. And He is faithful to lead us to that day when we, once for all, enter into His rest, gazing with adoration, fully, into the eyes and glorious countenance of our God for all eternity.

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Near Misses

Have you ever had a near miss? A time when the difference of a few inches or minutes was all tht separated you from tragedy? Friday evening, my car wouldn’t start. I was frustrated because I needed to go to church and set up the Sunday school lesson, but I wasn’t going anywhere. An online forum, of which I have been a member for more than 20 years has a  “rant” page where we can air our frustrations. So I posted about my vehicle and another member said, “Perhaps God wanted you to stay home.”

A near miss? I haven’t heard of anything untoward, at least not more than usual, happening in my town. But that comment and a question posted on the online page of my home town got me thinking about near misses. Two immediately came to mind.

In the urban neighborhood where I grew up, my block had mixed zoning. Businesses graced both the north and south corners of the block with residential housing in the middle. On the north corner was a Red Cross drugstore. Our family were frequent customers. Plus, I had gotten to know the pharmacist’s daughter when she and I shared a hospital room when we were eleven. So, at the age of twelve, I frequently hung out at the drugstore until closing at 9:00 on pleasant Friday evenings and Mr. Perlberg didn’t object. One Friday night, at about 8:30, it was just after dark and I ducked into the drugstore. I noticed, but did not pay much attention to two men who were lounging against the north wall of the store. At about 8:50, I said goodnight to Mr. Perlberg and headed home. The two men were still outside. The next morning as we ate breakfast and listened to the radio, which was always on, we heard the shocking news that the drugstore had been robbed. When Mr. Perlberg had not returned home by midnight, his wife had called the police who found him bound and gagged in the storeroom. Money and drugs were missing. He told the police two men had forced their way in as he was locking up, pulled a gun, and tied him up. Two men. And what if I had stayed just five more minutes until Mr. Perlberg was locking the door as I had so many times before? It was a near miss. And my father laid down the law that I was never to visit the drugstore after dark ever again.

The next event happened a few years later. I was in high school and had a job as a postal assistant at the  post office downtown. On Friday nights, we teen-age employees worked until the mail truck from Milwaukee picked up all the out-of-town mail, which was 9:00 PM or slightly later. The post office was just a little over a mile from my home and I would walk home after work. My father, who at that time was a cabbie and therefore knew most of the darker parts of the city, had given me strict instructions as to the route I was to follow. I was to head south on Wisconsin Avenue, a brightly lit and well-traveled street, past St. Luke’s Hospital, then turn west on 14th Street, another well-lit and traveled thoroughfare and finally back north a half block to home. But I thought I knew better. Instead, I made the southerly part of my walk along Main Street where I admired the mansions that fronted on Lake Michigan. I turned west on 12th Street then cut diagonally across the St.Luke’s staff parking lot to 13th Street and finally, south a half block on Villa Street to my home. Not only was this route more interesting, it cut a good three blocks off my walk.

So, as my family and I ate our breakfast on another Saturday morning, listening to the radio, we heard horrifying news. A nurse at St. Luke’s Hospital had become ill during her shift. Her supervisor sent her home. The hospital security guard checked her out at 9:15 that night. When she did not show up at her home, her husband called the police. The police found her car in the staff parking lot. The driver’s door was open, her keys on the ground, and her purse on the passenger seat. Later they had found her mutilated body near the 14th Street beach.

My Dad must have read the look on my face. I had walked through that parking lot within minutes either before or after the abduction. When I confessed where I had been, he hit the ceiling, and rightfully so. I had defied his explicit instructions and walked into the vicinity of a horrific crime. He wanted to call the police, but I had neither seen nor heard anything out of the ordinary. I was not a witness. Thereafter, Dad declared I was not to walk home after work in the dark but to take a cab home.

Another near miss.

Yet there have been other times in my life that have not been near misses. The deer that ran in front of my car. (Three of them!) Other car accidents. A tumble down some stairs that on one occasion resulted in a fractured kneecap and on another a dislocated elbow. Still, as I type other near misses come to mind. The ovarian cancer that miraculously was confined within a membrane so that I did not need chemotherapy. The time I was almost dragged off the ground by a runaway theater batten. Or when I was six and hit by a car but suffered only scrapes and a concussion. And I am sure there are others I don’t even know about.

So the question is why? Why God’s hand of protection, even when I was doing something I was not supposed to do, during some events but not others? And yes, I am firmly convinced that God protected me in those neaNear Misses

Have you ever had a near miss? A time when the difference of a few inches or minutes was all tht separated you from tragedy? Friday evening, my car wouldn’t start. I was frustrated because I needed to go to church and set up the Sunday school lesson, but I wasn’t going anywhere. An online forum, of which I have been a member for more than 20 years has a  “rant” page where we can air our frustrations. So I posted about my vehicle and another member said, “Perhaps God wanted you to stay home.”

A near miss? I haven’t heard of anything untoward, at least not more than usual, happening in my town. But that comment and a question posted on the online page of my home town got me thinking about near misses. Two immediately came to mind.

In the urban neighborhood where I grew up, my block had mixed zoning. Businesses graced both the north and south corners of the block with residential housing in the middle. On the north corner was a Red Cross drugstore. Our family were frequent customers. Plus, I had gotten to know the pharmacist’s daughter when she and I shared a hospital room when we were eleven. So, at the age of twelve, I frequently hung out at the drugstore until closing at 9:00 on pleasant Friday evenings and Mr. Perlberg didn’t object. One Friday night, at about 8:30, it was just after dark and I ducked into the drugstore. I noticed, but did not pay much attention to two men who were lounging against the north wall of the store. At about 8:50, I said goodnight to Mr. Perlberg and headed home. The two men were still outside. The next morning as we ate breakfast and listened to the radio, which was always on, we heard the shocking news that the drugstore had been robbed. When Mr. Perlberg had not returned home by midnight, his wife had called the police who found him bound and gagged in the storeroom. Money and drugs were missing. He told the police two men had forced their way in as he was locking up, pulled a gun, and tied him up. Two men. And what if I had stayed just five more minutes until Mr. Perlberg was locking the door as I had so many times before? It was a near miss. And my father laid down the law that I was never to visit the drugstore after dark ever again.

The next event happened a few years later. I was in high school and had a job as a postal assistant at the  post office downtown. On Friday nights, we teen-age employees worked until the mail truck from Milwaukee picked up all the out-of-town mail, which was 9:00 PM or slightly later. The post office was just a little over a mile from my home and I would walk home after work. My father, who at that time was a cabbie and therefore knew most of the darker parts of the city, had given me strict instructions as to the route I was to follow. I was to head south on Wisconsin Avenue, a brightly lit and well-traveled street, past St. Luke’s Hospital, then turn west on 14th Street, another well-lit and traveled thoroughfare and finally back north a half block to home. But I thought I knew better. Instead, I made the southerly part of my walk along Main Street where I admired the mansions that fronted on Lake Michigan. I turned west on 12th Street then cut diagonally across the St.Luke’s staff parking lot to 13th Street and finally, south a half block on Villa Street to my home. Not only was this route more interesting, it cut a good three blocks off my walk.

So, as my family and I ate our breakfast on another Saturday morning, listening to the radio, we heard horrifying news. A nurse at St. Luke’s Hospital had become ill during her shift. Her supervisor sent her home. The hospital security guard checked her out at 9:15 that night. When she did not show up at her home, her husband called the police. The police found her car in the staff parking lot. The driver’s door was open, her keys on the ground, and her purse on the passenger seat. Later they had found her mutilated body near the 14th Street beach.

My Dad must have read the look on my face. I had walked through that parking lot within minutes either before or after the abduction. When I confessed where I had been, he hit the ceiling, and rightfully so. I had defied his explicit instructions and walked into the vicinity of a horrific crime. He wanted to call the police, but I had neither seen nor heard anything out of the ordinary. I was not a witness. Thereafter, Dad declared I was not to walk home after work in the dark but to take a cab home.

Another near miss.

Yet there have been other times in my life that have not been near misses. The deer that ran in front of my car. (Three of them!) Other car accidents. A tumble down some stairs that on one occasion resulted in a fractured kneecap and on another a dislocated elbow. Still, as I type other near misses come to mind. The ovarian cancer that miraculously was confined within a membrane so that I did not need chemotherapy. The time I was almost dragged off the ground by a runaway theater batten. Or when I was six and hit by a car but suffered only scrapes and a concussion. And I am sure there are others I don’t even know about.

So the question is why? Why God’s hand of protection, even when I was doing something I was not supposed to do, during some events but not others? And yes, I am firmly convinced that God protected me in those near misses. I don’t believe in coincidence. I am grateful for those times of grace and continue to thank Him whenever they come to mind.

Is my car malfunctioning another near miss? I had intended to get a fish dinner at Culver’s on Friday night. Instead, I ate at home. My Sunday school teacher will have to create her own lesson plan this week since I could not set up the lesson. Plus, I missed out on the youth group carwash today.  And I will be relying on a fried to pick up my brother and I to get to church on Sunday.

The truly amazing thing is that I am not fretting. If the car’s battery simply died, a jump start from the mechanic will set things right. If it’s the starter that has gone kaput, well, that will be more expensive but, again, it can be fixed. Maybe this whole scenario is just God’s way of making me stop and remember what He has done for me and to give Him thanks and praise.Near Misses

Have you ever had a near miss? A time when the difference of a few inches or minutes was all tht separated you from tragedy? Friday evening, my car wouldn’t start. I was frustrated because I needed to go to church and set up the Sunday school lesson, but I wasn’t going anywhere. An online forum, of which I have been a member for more than 20 years has a  “rant” page where we can air our frustrations. So I posted about my vehicle and another member said, “Perhaps God wanted you to stay home.”

A near miss? I haven’t heard of anything untoward, at least not more than usual, happening in my town. But that comment and a question posted on the online page of my home town got me thinking about near misses. Two immediately came to mind.

In the urban neighborhood where I grew up, my block had mixed zoning. Businesses graced both the north and south corners of the block with residential housing in the middle. On the north corner was a Red Cross drugstore. Our family were frequent customers. Plus, I had gotten to know the pharmacist’s daughter when she and I shared a hospital room when we were eleven. So, at the age of twelve, I frequently hung out at the drugstore until closing at 9:00 on pleasant Friday evenings and Mr. Perlberg didn’t object. One Friday night, at about 8:30, it was just after dark and I ducked into the drugstore. I noticed, but did not pay much attention to two men who were lounging against the north wall of the store. At about 8:50, I said goodnight to Mr. Perlberg and headed home. The two men were still outside. The next morning as we ate breakfast and listened to the radio, which was always on, we heard the shocking news that the drugstore had been robbed. When Mr. Perlberg had not returned home by midnight, his wife had called the police who found him bound and gagged in the storeroom. Money and drugs were missing. He told the police two men had forced their way in as he was locking up, pulled a gun, and tied him up. Two men. And what if I had stayed just five more minutes until Mr. Perlberg was locking the door as I had so many times before? It was a near miss. And my father laid down the law that I was never to visit the drugstore after dark ever again.

The next event happened a few years later. I was in high school and had a job as a postal assistant at the  post office downtown. On Friday nights, we teen-age employees worked until the mail truck from Milwaukee picked up all the out-of-town mail, which was 9:00 PM or slightly later. The post office was just a little over a mile from my home and I would walk home after work. My father, who at that time was a cabbie and therefore knew most of the darker parts of the city, had given me strict instructions as to the route I was to follow. I was to head south on Wisconsin Avenue, a brightly lit and well-traveled street, past St. Luke’s Hospital, then turn west on 14th Street, another well-lit and traveled thoroughfare and finally back north a half block to home. But I thought I knew better. Instead, I made the southerly part of my walk along Main Street where I admired the mansions that fronted on Lake Michigan. I turned west on 12th Street then cut diagonally across the St.Luke’s staff parking lot to 13th Street and finally, south a half block on Villa Street to my home. Not only was this route more interesting, it cut a good three blocks off my walk.

So, as my family and I ate our breakfast on another Saturday morning, listening to the radio, we heard horrifying news. A nurse at St. Luke’s Hospital had become ill during her shift. Her supervisor sent her home. The hospital security guard checked her out at 9:15 that night. When she did not show up at her home, her husband called the police. The police found her car in the staff parking lot. The driver’s door was open, her keys on the ground, and her purse on the passenger seat. Later they had found her mutilated body near the 14th Street beach.

My Dad must have read the look on my face. I had walked through that parking lot within minutes either before or after the abduction. When I confessed where I had been, he hit the ceiling, and rightfully so. I had defied his explicit instructions and walked into the vicinity of a horrific crime. He wanted to call the police, but I had neither seen nor heard anything out of the ordinary. I was not a witness. Thereafter, Dad declared I was not to walk home after work in the dark but to take a cab home.

Another near miss.

Yet there have been other times in my life that have not been near misses. The deer that ran in front of my car. (Three of them!) Other car accidents. A tumble down some stairs that on one occasion resulted in a fractured kneecap and on another a dislocated elbow. Still, as I type other near misses come to mind. The ovarian cancer that miraculously was confined within a membrane so that I did not need chemotherapy. The time I was almost dragged off the ground by a runaway theater batten. Or when I was six and hit by a car but suffered only scrapes and a concussion. And I am sure there are others I don’t even know about.

So the question is why? Why God’s hand of protection, even when I was doing something I was not supposed to do, during some events but not others? And yes, I am firmly convinced that God protected me in those near misses. I don’t believe in coincidence. I am grateful for those times of grace and continue to thank Him whenever they come to mind.

Is my car malfunctioning another near miss? I had intended to get a fish dinner at Culver’s on Friday night. Instead, I ate at home. My Sunday school teacher will have to create her own lesson plan this week since I could not set up the lesson. Plus, I missed out on the youth group carwash today.  And I will be relying on a fried to pick up my brother and I to get to church on Sunday.

The truly amazing thing is that I am not fretting. If the car’s battery simply died, a jump start from the mechanic will set things right. If it’s the starter that has gone kaput, well, that will be more expensive but, again, it can be fixed. Maybe this whole scenario is just God’s way of making me stop and remember what He has done for me and to give Him thanks and praise.r misses. I don’t believe in coincidence. I am grateful for those times of grace and continue to thank Him whenever they come to mind.

Is my car malfunctioning another near miss? I had intended to get a fish dinner at Culver’s on Friday night. Instead, I ate at home. My Sunday school teacher will have to create her own lesson plan this week since I could not set up the lesson. Plus, I missed out on the youth group carwash today.  And I will be relying on a fried to pick up my brother and I to get to church on Sunday.

The truly amazing thing is that I am not fretting. If the car’s battery simply died, a jump start from the mechanic will set things right. If it’s the starter that has gone kaput, well, that will be more expensive but, again, it can be fixed. Maybe this whole scenario is just God’s way of making me stop and remember what He has done for me and to give Him thanks and praise.

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The Better Part

Pastors and Bible study leaders do love to pick on Martha. You remember Martha? When Jesus came to the home she shared with her brother Lazarus and sister Mary, a large group of people gathered to hear Jesus teach. Martha was tasked with feeding them all, and instead of helping out in the food preparation, Mary took a seat among the men and listened to Jesus. When Martha complained to Jesus about her workload, He gently chastised her for her worries and concerns and said Mary had chosen the better part and it would not be taken away from her. But goodness! Where would our churches be today without the Marthas? I know every church has at least one. We call them church ladies and they provide a host of fodder for comedians both religious and secular.

Poor Martha! All she wanted to do was serve and instead she was admonished. Nothing more is said concerning the events of that day – what sort of meal was served, who, if anyone, helped with the clean-up, what provision was made for those who had traveled too far to return home that night, and so on.

But somehow in pastoral exegesis of this story, it seems to be assumed that Martha was ignorant of Jesus’ teachings because she was consumed with worldly issues.

Not so.

How do I know this? Let’s meet up with Martha in the only other passage about her in the New Testament. She is near the tomb of her brother Lazarus, mourning. Jesus arrives. Listen to what Martha says. “Lord…” She does not call Jesus friend or even teacher, but Lord, a title given only to nobility or divinity. “…if you had been here, my brother would not have died.” Martha understood the power of life and death was in Jesus’ hands. When Jesus tells her that Lazarus will rise again, Martha says, “I know. I know that in the resurrection, he will rise again, I will rise again.” She understands there is more to this life than what we can see, hear, taste, smell or touch.

Then Jesus says those immortal words, “I AM the resurrection and the life. Do you believe?”

And Martha answers, “Yes, Lord. I believe.” Martha was not ignorant of Jesus’ teaching. She may not have been sitting at His feet as was her sister, but during the course of their friendship, Martha had absorbed the truth of Jesus’ identity – Son of So the Most High God.

So the next time you see your church’s Martha, whether she be staffing the nursery, teaching Sunday school, or serving breakfast, give her a hand. And then, when she has caught her breath, sit down with a cup of coffee and listen to the lessons about the faith that she has learned.

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A Little Leaven

Grocery shopping on Wednesday, I noticed the store had its “home baked” sourdough bread on sale. I do like a good sourdough. So I bought it and this morning I enjoyed a breakfast sandwich made with it. It was very good.

I usually buy the next to the least expensive bread at the supermarket, although I am perfectly capable of baking my own. Indeed, I even have several blue ribbons and a best of show ribbon from the county fair for my whole wheat bread. So why don’t I bake my own on a regular basis? I’m not a morning person. I stay up late and sleep in, usually until 8:30 or so. And though there is no logical reason for it, something gleaned from my mother’s bread baking is that it must be started early in the day — no later than 7:00 AM. That’s so the roughly four hour process will have time to be finished before noon. So if I’m not up by 7:00 AM, I am not baking bread.

I’ve been seeing these recipes online for no-knead, one-bowl sourdough breads that take less time than the traditional methods. They require a sourdough starter rather than commercially available yeast.

Yeast.

My mind wanders to Jesus saying, “a little leaven leavens the whole dough.” I know that is true. A tablespoon of yeast will cause five cups of flour to rise, not once, but three times. But then Jesus also tells his followers, “Beware of the leaven of the Pharisees.” That even a tiny bit of the legalism practiced by the religious elite of His day has the capacity to infect the entire spiritual life of a person.

Next my mind wanders to the Jewish custom, continued to this very day among the Orthodox to thoroughly clean a house from rafters to cellar before Passover. Somehow, before microscopic science could prove it, those ancient Jews knew that yeast, leaven, was hidden in the dust. After the women have spent days scrubbing and dusting, a tiny pile of debris is left in a cupboard. The man of the house, armed with a feather and a piece of paper then hunts out that bit of dust. He sweeps it into the paper, takes it outside and burns it. Then he proclaims, “I have cleaned my house.” All the leaven is gone.

Digging a little deeper, I recall that yeast is a living organism, although dormant until given the correct environment: warm water or milk and sugar. Then it wakes up, feeds on the sugar, and as Alton Brown so indelicately put it, creates the gas that causes bread to rise. That brings me around again to making sourdough starter. The “easy” methods call for using commercial dry yeast to get it going. But the ancient method requires nothing but flour and water and perhaps a little sugar or honey. Flour is mixed with warm water to form a slurry. This sits in an open container in a warm place for several days until bubbles begin to form. Then the starter is fed and part of it used to make bread. Some San Francisco bakeries claim they have kept their starter alive for more than 100 years.

But where did the yeast that caused the fermentation come from? Nowhere…and everywhere. Invisible yeast spores permeate the atmosphere. The only places that possibly do not have any yeast spores are industrial clean rooms with hepa filters that cleanse the air.

And…that brings me back to Passover. God commanded the Jews to prepare for that celebration of freedom to rid their homes of leaven. No leavened baked goods, no sourdough starter, and even the very dust was to be removed from their homes. Not a speck of yeast was to be present.

And yet.

And yet the very air in which they moved and breathed and had their being contained yeast. Quite literally, God’s command was impossible to fulfill…just as perfectly keeping the Mosaic Law and all the Levitical regulations was and is impossible. Even as the rich young ruler who approached Jesus claimed to have done yet walked away from the only One who could do the impossible. So often, we allow the leaven, the yeast of legalism, perfectionism, to convince us that we are righteous in our own strength and habit. Confronted, we defensively claim, “Well, at least I don’t do THAT!”

Jesus tells us to beware the leaven of the Pharisees, to beware the leaven of our age, our culture. It surrounds us as the very air we breathe. It is so easy for it to ferment and infect our worldview, our inner conversations, our habits. But in Jesus, in faith in Him, lies the antidote. Salt kills yeast. Did you know that? In Jesus we find the salt of truth that cleanses us of the leaven of culture, of legalism, of perfectionism. And then He tells us, “Go. Be salt to the world.”

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Playing God?

I will be among the first to say that modern medicine is wonderful. Without it, I would have been a cripple at age five and dead by age eleven. Thanks to modern medicine, my mother enjoyed an extra 30 years of life and both my elder brothers received several “bonus” years.

But.

Along with the amazing pharmacology and technology of this age’s healing arts comes the responsibility of making decisions. Hard decisions.

I had to make one of those today, and although I know it was necessary, the false guilt lies heavy upon me.

I am guardian of the person for my mother’s youngest brother, my Uncle Robert. I have held this position since 2001, or 23 years. Uncle Robert, who is now 90, was born with Fragile X Syndrome, a genetic disorder that causes developmental disability. Robert grew up a farm boy, loving both his cows and his tractors. Even though he is unable to read or do math, he could take one of those old Ford tractors apart and put it back together again, ready for another season of plowing and harvesting. He now lives in an ideal situation, a community based residential facility (CBRF) that is the family home of his nephews who also are developmentally disabled. There is a caring staff who come in every day to see that he is bathed, clothed, and fed and able to enjoy his favorite activity of driving his golf cart around the property. Although he does miss his cows.  

Robert’s health has been on the decline for the past decade or so, something not unexpected at his age. Two weeks ago my cousin Anne, who sees to Robert’s every day care, called to let me know he was having difficulty breathing. She took him in to his primary care physician and his medications were adjusted. This morning, he fell out of bed and was too weak to stand. He was transported to the nearest critical care hospital in Duluth, Minnesota. There, he was diagnosed with COVID and pneumonia. I have spent my day fielding phone calls from my cousin, Robert’s care workers, and the hospital doctors. I approved a treatment plan, but…

There’s always a but. Uncle Robert may bounce back from this latest health challenge. But he may not. So there were decisions to be made; decisions to not intubate him should his oxygen levels drop and not resuscitate should his heart stop. Decisions that I had to make. A decision to “play God.”

I’ve had to make that decision in the past, for my mother. The hardest thing I have ever had to do in my life was to sit with her for a week in hospice as her body gradually shut down. Sixteen years later I still wonder if I should have fought harder. Some day, I may have to make a similar decision for my younger brother, as I am also his guardian.

I don’t like playing God. For one thing, I am terrible at it. I don’t like the responsibility of holding another person’s life in my hands. That is the reason I never went into the field of nursing, although my mother kept pushing me in that direction.

And yet, ultimately, whether my Uncle pulls through or dies, the final decision is not in my hands. We all will die. And this situation is temporal, one limited to this time and space. Of one thing I am certain. Uncle Robert epitomizes the child-like faith Jesus commends. Though his time on earth may be coming to an end, his time in eternity never will.

So that’s what being responsible for another person’s earthly life is like. But what about being responsible for a person’s eternal life? There is a Scripture passage in the book of Ezekiel, chapter three that is one of the most frightening I’ve ever read. God tells the prophet that a person who is sinning will die for his sins. But if Ezekiel, if you, if I, know that person is sinning as do not warn the person of the consequences of that sin, God will hold us responsible for that person’s blood. If we do warn him and he repents, we will be credited with his salvation. If we warn him and he ignores us, he will suffer the consequences but God will not hold us responsible. Scary, isn’t it?

I am praying Uncle Robert recovers. I am praying that when his time comes God will take him gently without the need for the lifesaving apparatus that fills a hospital room. I am praying that my decisions for his medical care will not be a factor in his entrance into eternity. I do not want to play God. As I said, I am terrible at it.